So I was clear of the depression for quite a while thanks to my Citalopram, then I came off them...but unlike all the other times I came off Citalopram I stayed emotionally numb for a little while! and now, nearly 7-8 months later I'm still feeling "disconnected". I can feel quite emotional at times, but when I do it's not any one in particular. It's just that I either feel everything at once or I'm totally apathetic and don't give a frak.

Anyway I find myself feeling pretty low at times and I've been thinking about hanging myself for months - very specific I know, but I'm not in danger of pwning myself (so don't you worry guys), I just feel like doing it alot - Like it might solve all my problems.

Anywayz just sharing =D =D ...I'm having a fairly odd day today

khalidibn Wrote:So I was clear of the depression for quite a while thanks to my Citalopram, then I came off them...but unlike all the other times I came off Citalopram I stayed emotionally numb for a little while! and now, nearly 7-8 months later I'm still feeling "disconnected". I can feel quite emotional at times, but when I do it's not any one in particular. It's just that I either feel everything at once or I'm totally apathetic and don't give a frak.

If you don't mind me asking, why'd you come off your meds if they were helping with your depression?

khalidibn Wrote:Anyway I find myself feeling pretty low at times and I've been thinking about hanging myself for months - very specific I know, but I'm not in danger of pwning myself (so don't you worry guys), I just feel like doing it alot - Like it might solve all my problems.

I know you said you're not in danger of committing suicide, but, personally, I think that if you've gone as far as to conclude how you'd go about committing suicide, then there's some danger there. I understand that you don't plan on acting on the thoughts, but there's still quite an issue if you've thought things through this much.

I can understand how you feel though; suicide does seem like an easy way to 'get things over with'. But it's not the right way to solve your problems. It's not fair to make yourself miss out on a lifetime just because you're having a hard time now. Not to mention, suicide is something that involves many more people than just the person that commits it.

I wish I could say something that'd be a bit more helpful. It'd help knowing why you came off the meds though.

Hope things start looking up for you.