I feel like a freak sometimes. Honestly, all the time. No one in my family and none of friends understand how scared I am of vomiting. And what sucks is I suffer chronic migraines so vomiting is a pretty frequent thing for me. However, it's a little different than when I get sick with a virus. I can tell you the day I got sick, the time, what I was wearing, what I ate that day, and the time that I got sick with a virus. And it's so embarrassing. I threw away the outfits I had worn. I don't go to the places I ate the day I got sick. I avoid the places I went to and the places I was going to go to. I think about vomiting constantly. I think about being nauseous. There's been times that when I felt like I was gonna get sick that I tried to knock myself out by banging my head on the wall. I would rather be dead than be sick and that scares me too. What if I do kill myself someday from fear of vomiting.? It literally controls my life. I see a psychiatrist and psychologist but it doesn't help. I've taken a couple of depression medications (I suffer depression on top of anxiety and phobias) but it doesn't help. I've taken a few anxiety meds (no benzos which idk if they'd even help) and it didn't do me any good. Talking about it makes me even more anxious. I'm just to the point of where I don't know what to do. I feel completely alone in this and I'm tired of it running my life. Is there like a surgery or cure all to never vomit again.? Is there a way for my phobia to go away.? I just want to live a normal life, even if just for a day. I hope to hear back from someone that knows how I feel or from someone who has answers.

Hi,
I've thought about it and it's hard to give you advice because I'm only afraid when other people get sick. When someone else says they're going to be sick, I stop what I'm doing and walk away, so I guess I would say when you feel sick, drop what you're doing, lie down, drink water, and think about anything else. Read a good book or watch a movie and just wait. Sometimes the best way to control your phobia is pretend you don't have one, because putting labels on things seems to make them feel more real and controlling. Taking a rest is most likely what anyone else would do; your phobia is in your brain, not your body, so phobia or no phobia, chilling out, lying down, and thinking about other things is probably good for you. I don't know if this is helpful or not, and I doubt it is. Because I'm not you and I don't know what you're going through, or if my advice will even really help, but I thought you at least deserved to know that someone read your post and cares enough to write back.