So I'm not sure how often i will do this, and i hope its not boring but oh well, i will try my hardest to do this as often as i can.

Anyone and Everyone can comment thats fine with me.

I guess ill start today.

I didnt have work today, which is fine since i know that i could stay home and do homework. Its 10:00 p.m. over where i am and i just finished watching American Idol, i wasnt really paying attention since i was looking on here trying to see if there was anyone here with the fear of change, and then i got this weird feeling in my stomach, kinda like the beginning of an anxiety attack, it feels so weird sometimes. I hope i can overcome this, but im not really doing anything but ignoring it and trying to get past it. I dont want to take medication and i dont really think my therapist is helping. She kinda makes me feel weird sometimes, like i have to remind her who i am. She doesnt remember anything i tell her she just sits there and makes me sit in silence, which i hate so i start laughing, i think my mom helps me a lot through this all. I should be paying her instead of my therapist. Tomorrow i have some school in the morning and at night but next week is spring break!! i was going to go to San Diego with my boyfriend and his family but i have to work. I thought it was going to be a big step for me because i rarely go anywhere anymore, but i guess not. I am going to a little concert/show on friday that should be fun. See what doesnt make sense is that i think im an agoraphobe but i dont have a problem leaving my house to go to some places. oh well i guess ill have to figure this one out too.

Alrighty!! have a great night everyone!!

So i caught up on my shows: one tree hill and gossip girl. Its so funny because im the total opposite to the girls in gossip girl but i guess the drama keeps me hooked. I got my dad into gossip girl so its sort of our bonding show, which is neat because growing up we werent THAT close. now we are even closer, especially since ive been going through this thing and have been staying close to home we hang out during the day.

right now im working on this photoshop project for my dads business, his partner told him that he really liked the poster i did for this before and that was cool. So now im trying to make it better! haha I like making my parents proud its something i thought i never did. i guess i do.