Hello everyone, it's 5:00am here in UK and i've woken up with a panic attack.

It's happening quite a lot at the moment. I've taken a valium type thingy and been on phone to the Samaritans for an hour, I don't know what I'd do with out their charity. Just trying to calm down.

I get so scared, terrified, shaky, I'm 31 now and really hoped it would get better as I got older. Basically I'm crying now because I just want my mum. I just feel like a little girl who needs her mummy and daddy to tell her everything will be ok. Not sure I'm cut out for being an adult. My mum lives abroad so I hardly ever see her. My family are all asleep right now so I can't wake anyone up. Thought I would register on here and say hello to the other anxiety sufferers. If I can cry it helps, but I find it so hard to cry, like my natural self-protection mechanisms are faulty. When I'm shaking and my heart is pounding I feel this insurmountable dread, I know I'm catastrophising and it's false feedback etc. Can't stop worrying about death and my family dying. None of us can prevent these things. I'm scared of the pain if it happens.

I work in an investment bank right now, it's very stressful. I've been sleeping for 12 hours as I'm so exhausted and then I get insomnia. I constantly feel like I just want to get myself sectioned, this fear is destroying my life.

That's me for now

Hello Girlonline

Welcome to the forum, its just a shame that it had to be under these circumstances.

You've obviously been to a GP because i note that you mentioned take a "valium type thingie".

I just wondered if you have thought about trying some natural techniques like relaxation therapy, self hypnosis etc? The reason i ask is that sometimes these drugs can cause more problems and be more trouble than they are worth. Youve got a problem so the best advice i can give is to share it with your Mother. Give her a call.....fill her in and im sure that she would love to help.

Knowing you have her support and if need be, a phone call at 3am will be accepted....well, it may just help calm you down.

Keep us informed and drop by for a chat, it sure cant hurt and its nice to know that you have someone to talk to

(11-05-2011 05:52 PM)Snooks Wrote:  Hello Girlonline

Welcome to the forum, its just a shame that it had to be under these circumstances.

You've obviously been to a GP because i note that you mentioned take a "valium type thingie".

I just wondered if you have thought about trying some natural techniques like relaxation therapy, self hypnosis etc? The reason i ask is that sometimes these drugs can cause more problems and be more trouble than they are worth. Youve got a problem so the best advice i can give is to share it with your Mother. Give her a call.....fill her in and im sure that she would love to help.

Knowing you have her support and if need be, a phone call at 3am will be accepted....well, it may just help calm you down.

Keep us informed and drop by for a chat, it sure cant hurt and its nice to know that you have someone to talk to

Hey Snooks, thanks for the reply how nice! I went back to bed and woke at at 14:30pm feeling a lot better but a little wiped out from the sore eyes and the lorazepam which I take maybe twice a month, only when I'm having a panic.

I've been to a centre for anxiety disorder and have tried the various techniques, the breathing gets lots on me. I listen to a hypo thing on my iPod when I'm calm as a preventative measure but it can't use it when I'm shaky. I've found the best way to calm down is to try to cry about something, it kind of resets the panic and drains me out.

Unfortunately my mum and dad would not be pleased to be woken up, they always made it clear that my anxiety was a bit of a nuisance and evidence of being ungodly in some way. But I have a lovely partner and my sister who are always there - I will talk to them about it. I need a new life strategy.

Thanks so much for saying hello, it's really nice of you

Quote:Unfortunately my mum and dad would not be pleased to be woken up, they always made it clear that my anxiety was a bit of a nuisance and evidence of being ungodly in some way.

Its a shame that you dont quite get the support you need and its amazing how many people have phobias that people consider trival.

Unless you have been there, i guess you really cant understand how debilitating and scary a phobia can be.

Well you are doing a wise thing in seeking out treatnment like you have done and im sure that a bit of finetuning and with some hard work, that you can accomplish your goal and put your problems behind you

Hey Snooks

It's a fear of fear really. It's a work in progress, think I will stick around on these forums - nice to talk to others with similar problems.

Thanks for you reply :-)

Fear of fear....i know what you mean.

Sometimes the anticipation of a problem, or an unpleasant situation, is actually worse than the issue itself.

I mean....in my case worrying about going to the dentist kills me for weeks, but when ive been, it wasnt that bad. it may be uncomfy but it wasnt hugely painful and not a tenth as bad as i had worried about.

When I am bad with my anxiety I have to call my brother or sister in law. i feel guilty later cuz often it is rather late. But my brother kinda raised me and my sister in law has had to deal with mental illness so they are both very understanding thankfully. But sometime it makes a huge difference just to talk to someone who understands what you are going through and is there to help calm you down.

take care and know you are not alone of this issue at all!