I don't want to go apply for that job! Blah! Not that I don't like the sounds of the job (I actually really like the sounds of it), it's just the whole... walking in there while trying not to act like a fool thing. I'm so good at thinking about stupid stuff. Do I ask for the manager or just hand the resume, etc into the cashier? If I do ask for the manager, do I offer to shake his/her hand or not? Do I just tell him/her the basics, or do I try to have a bit of a 'conversation' with the manager in hopes of making a good impression? I'm working off an extremely crummy resume, so I need to make the best darn first impression that I can. Which isn't good.

I hate this stuff. It makes me feel like a little kid. Honestly, I would have been better at this stuff when I was like 16 as opposed to now. Which is horrible. I'm so bad at this whole growing up thing.

My first tuition payment is due in a couple of weeks and I haven't even gotten a job yet. My parents have offered to make the payment for me, but they're also suppose to get me a car. I know they want me to go to college really badly, but I don't want them to help me that much. They've both worked hard their entire adult life. I can't go and take that much money from them. I know they'll want to kick my butt for it... but if I'm not able to sort things out in the next week or so, I'm going to contact the college and forfeit my seat (if they'll even let me). I should actually do it shortly so that whoever else gets my seat in the course will have some time to get the money together.

It's just one of those days. Need I say anymore?

I'm having one of those days where I keep going to post stuff, but then end up changing my mind.

My procastination has been even worse than usual this week.

I'm so tired. I really need a day off.

LOL...it will take you a good 2-3 months to get into the swing of things and get accustomed to working full time.

Once the excitement and novelty wears off, which happens pretty fast, it can be tedious but hopefully you are in a job you can like. Thats not saying you will be delighted to go to work each day....but at least you wont dread going to work.

The money also helps, though, when i started work in my youth, after the first few weeks of splurging, i found i didnt like spending it unless i had to. It was too hard to earn and i certainly didnt like wasting it.

You will get there Ana, chin up, you are doing well and without doubt, you appear to be a very nice and responsible young lady.

Well, I've been working nearly a month now. So, hopefully you're right and I'll be more use to things after another month or so. As far as going to work everyday goes, I'd like to hope that I never really dread it. I know no one truly likes having to go to work, but my job has a pretty rewarding aspect to it. So, I'd like to hope that that makes up for all the stress, etc. Plus, I have some pretty amusing coworkers. That always helps.

And the money really does help matters.

Anyways, thanks Snooks. I'm sure I'll be fine. I just need some time to adjust, as you said. Plus this past week was a bit more tiring than usual because I picked up some extra shifts. So, yeah. It was just one of those weeks.

I've just had to unchoke myself over the sink.

There is most certainly a direct correlation between stress/anxiety/tension, and getting food stuck in my throat.

(07-19-2011 07:23 AM)Globetrotter Wrote:  I've just had to unchoke myself over the sink.

There is most certainly a direct correlation between stress/anxiety/tension, and getting food stuck in my throat.

I've noticed that I have quite the issue with that as well. Especially in the morning. If I'm quite anxious in the morning, breakfast never goes too well.

A very exciting week as my body decided to go into a major Anaphylactis(sic) Shock, as protest against one of my medicines.

On Tuesday, despite taking it thousands of times before, it hit me hard. Left me unconcious on the floor and almost dead, Paramedics working on me for 45 mins before i could be transported. Blood pressure was 85/35 at one stage

Once administered Adrenalin and stuff, i came around pretty fast and was discharged after only a day in hospital......though i did spend 2 days mainly in bed at home.

But im feeling better now, I also know that suffocating on ones own swollen tounge is not a very nice way to die. I can tell you now that this morning its bright sunshine and i sure as hell appreciate being here a lot more than i did before this event.

It terrified me

Wow, that's awful Snooks. It's good to hear that you survived though. So you're doing okay now?

It must have been real scary. Both for you, and for your family. :/ Is it the first time you've had that kind of reaction to your medicine?

Yeh, im ok now Harold but i dont mind telling you it scared the life out of me

Ive taken that medication for ages....the Doctors explained that for some reason, on this occasion, the body identified it as an intruder and simply attacked it.....hence the reaction. Now that it has been identified by my body i can never take it again.

Its taken a few days to get over it, i really cant stop thinking and talking about it. If the Paramedics were 2 mins later i would have been beyond being resuscitated. It's the sort of thing you read about that happens to somebody.......but not to you

Sorry to hear that you went through all of that Snooks. I don't see how any of that couldn't have terrified you. It's good to hear that you're ok now though (at least physically). So, your doctor's taken you off that medication? Is it a medication that he/she will have to find a substitute for now?

Anyways, although I know it's hard to look at it this way, everything happens for a reason. I've had the privilege of knowing a few people that have had 'close calls' in their lifetime and they always seem to find the value in life when some of us have trouble doing so. I'm not saying that you didn't value things before, but maybe now you'll have more of a 'look past the dark days' mentality. If that makes sense.

Again though, sorry to hear that all of that happened. I can imagine that your family was quite upset too.

Hello Anna,

The Doctor replaced that medication immediately. He explained that the body identified it an an intrude and as such, attacked it. Now it knows the "coding", it will forever identify it as an intruder and taking it again would result in the same effect

I must admit i am a whole different person since the event and i truly do appreciate life a bit more. It may sound corny, but i can assure you it's true.

Ive never been so scared as i was that night.

That is so horrible Snooks! I can not believe that happened to you! I am so glad you made it through it though! Hopefully the newer medication wont have that effect. It makes me nervous hearing about that needing to be on too many scripts myself its horrible to even think that COULD happen let alone actually did. I am so glad you are feeling better! I am sorry such a scary thing happened to you and your family!