HI Slaka.

Ive done a lot of thinking since it happened and im very lucky. Sure, im terrified of hieghts and im a tad scared of some other things, but thankfully i dont have a lot of the issues that the members of this community have.

Im very fortunate i dont have to take the meds that some of you do and i swear to God, when i was in hospital the next day, one of the posts you made about the medication kept going over and over in my mind.

You can choose to believe me or not....but i really hope you do believe me when i say that reading the post, your determination to conquer the issues with your meds gave me a lot of hope and made me feel so much better. I wasnt the only one struck with medication issues.....i didnt feel alone.

Your previous posts really helped me understand things more and scared as i was, they helped me a lot.

For that, i will be forever grateful

(08-01-2011 10:50 AM)Snooks Wrote:  Hello Anna,

The Doctor replaced that medication immediately. He explained that the body identified it an an intrude and as such, attacked it. Now it knows the "coding", it will forever identify it as an intruder and taking it again would result in the same effect

I must admit i am a whole different person since the event and i truly do appreciate life a bit more. It may sound corny, but i can assure you it's true.

Ive never been so scared as i was that night.

There's nothing corny about appreciating life. It's a gift, that's for sure.

(07-30-2011 08:00 AM)Snooks Wrote:  A very exciting week as my body decided to go into a major Anaphylactis(sic) Shock, as protest against one of my medicines.

On Tuesday, despite taking it thousands of times before, it hit me hard. Left me unconcious on the floor and almost dead, Paramedics working on me for 45 mins before i could be transported. Blood pressure was 85/35 at one stage

Once administered Adrenalin and stuff, i came around pretty fast and was discharged after only a day in hospital......though i did spend 2 days mainly in bed at home.

But im feeling better now, I also know that suffocating on ones own swollen tounge is not a very nice way to die. I can tell you now that this morning its bright sunshine and i sure as hell appreciate being here a lot more than i did before this event.

It terrified me

Very glad to hear that you're now okay Snooks.

It's scary how there can be such a fine line between living and dying.

Thankfully I've never had a similar experience and nor do I ever want to! What I do remember however from years ago, is an incident where I was walking to work on an icy and frosty day. Stopping for a few moments to search my coat for my usual packet of mints, a car suddenly came round the corner, losing control and crashing into a wall. Now if I hadn't of stopped for those few moments to search for my packet of mints, guess where I would of been at the moment that car crashed...

Is that fate?

I sometimes wonder if our lives are pre-determined by some Intergalactic Life Form and if we are just pets, much the same as we have dogs and cats.

I know....its a bit far fetched but you really have to wonder.

Did the ILF save you from being mangled by the car?

I'd like to bite my intergalactic life form in the arm. He's a lousy pet owner.

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(08-09-2011 08:12 PM)Snooks Wrote:  Is that fate?

I sometimes wonder if our lives are pre-determined by some Intergalactic Life Form and if we are just pets, much the same as we have dogs and cats.

I know....its a bit far fetched but you really have to wonder.

Did the ILF save you from being mangled by the car?

I believe everything happens for a reason, and I do wonder about our lives being pre-determined, particularly with the amount of deja vu moments I have.

As for the ILF saving me from the car, I don't think I quite subscribe to that, but I do think something saved me from the car, maybe something along the spiritual lines.

(08-03-2011 07:16 PM)Snooks Wrote:  HI Slaka.

Ive done a lot of thinking since it happened and im very lucky. Sure, im terrified of hieghts and im a tad scared of some other things, but thankfully i dont have a lot of the issues that the members of this community have.

Im very fortunate i dont have to take the meds that some of you do and i swear to God, when i was in hospital the next day, one of the posts you made about the medication kept going over and over in my mind.

You can choose to believe me or not....but i really hope you do believe me when i say that reading the post, your determination to conquer the issues with your meds gave me a lot of hope and made me feel so much better. I wasnt the only one struck with medication issues.....i didnt feel alone.

Your previous posts really helped me understand things more and scared as i was, they helped me a lot.

For that, i will be forever grateful

Awww. Thanks Snooks!

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So I have a cold. Hopefully I will not be going to the hospital with this one. Its a bunch of crap that I can not just have a cold like a normal person. I will probably be sick for weeks, will have a cough for months, and have to constantly worry about ending up in the hospital. (I have pretty bad asthma, there for bad lungs, and LITERALLY coughed a hole in my lung like 2 years ago and they were worried about the air trapped around my heart and lungs and my lungs collapsing and my heart stopping. yes i know-wtf? who does that happen to?!? ME apparently...).

But I am worried about going typically because it just becomes too difficult to breathe even with all my medications. Usually i will have several days where I am unable to sleep because I can not lay down because when I do I can not breathe. SO MAD! I am taking this zicam crap which tastes nasty but i've heard good things from it helping people get over a cold quick. Been drinking a ton of vitamin C and fluids and getting plenty of rest. Granted my work week starts tomorrow so there goes plenty of rest for those three days...

The only thing I'm not doing is taking antibiotics and steroids but mostly cuz they increased some co pays with my insurance and I think it applies to urgent care and I am not willing to pay that much for a stupid doctors visit that often doesn't really help anyways. My doctor always takes forever to get into so I will just wait and see. If I end up needing to go to the hospital they give me better antibiotics and steroids anyways cuz they get the shots in my while i'm there! I hate this whole being sickly thing...

I think I'm starting to give up. The harder I try to better myself and my life, the worse everything seems to get. It's difficult to find the motivation to keep going sometimes.

I'm thinking of going back to therapy. I don't see how it'd help me though. And I don't want to worry my parents. They seem to be under the impression that I'm doing better socially. I don't even know HOW to go about finding a therapist again. Maybe through my GP, but I don't like him. Eh.

You cant give up Little Buddy....youve come to far to do that and you know this Sure, things arent great just now but that is merely a setback, not a return to the beginning.

I think the school issue is one of the major influences at this stage and as such, thats the priority to focus on.

Mate, you need help sorting it out and i think its time to ask your parents for assistance, its time to make an appointment to go and see the Head Master or Principle or whatever you call them and take the bull by the horns. I think if your school issues were resolved, then you would be in a better frame of mind.

Hope you dont mind me expressing my thoughts and i may be wrong, but please consider them.

Lets get you happy again, you seemed happier when you worked at the shelter and wernt doing this course

I think its completely worth trying what Snooks suggests. If it doesn't help at least you tried to address the issues there and you can say you did all you could to deal with the school.

I'm sorry your feeling this way. But a lot of people feel that way sometimes. Please try and keep your head up. You have been working very hard.

Take care.

I always manage to make a fool of myself in front of my boss or end up being (what I consider to be) rude. Which is lovely considering I'm going over to her house tonight.

I just hope I still have a job come tomorrow.

(12-22-2011 04:05 AM)Ana Wrote:  I always manage to make a fool of myself in front of my boss or end up being (what I consider to be) rude. Which is lovely considering I'm going over to her house tonight.

I just hope I still have a job come tomorrow.

And how did it go Ana?

My rant - writing out XMAS cards brings out slight OCD tendencies in me.

I work in a job where i meet the customers on each delivery. Some are nice, some are awful and just one or two are people that under different circumstances, could actually be friends.

I dread this time of year in some ways because they all want to shake hands and wish you a merry christmas.

I may be being bah, humbug.....You arent a friend, you dont really care about me or my family so lets just do the job as we always do The one or two that are almost friends, they of course are different.

And Christmas Cards from estate agents, banks, companies ive bought off through the year......you dont fool me You dont care....its simply a marketing and advertising ploy and i personally would rather that you didnt kill trees to send cards and letters to people that dont care.

Perhaps im being mean.....but these are my feelings.

(12-23-2011 08:54 AM)Globetrotter Wrote:  And how did it go Ana?

Well, I'm still employed. So, I suppose it didn't go too bad.

Now, for my rant. How do people survive the night shift? I barely remember half my night and it's not helping matters any that I can't sleep today. Darn work!