Probably my parents.

My biggest support is from an online friend...he lets me talk and doesn't judge me or make me feel weird. He himself has suffered from severe depression and also has social anxiety do he understands many things and he lets me ring him up for the most pathetic of reasons ha ha... My mother tries to support me but i think she is embarressed by me you know...so she tends to make me worse.

Thats great that you have an online friend that supports you Karina. I think we all need a person that makes us feel safe. Im sure your mum means well really but some people that dont have experience with these things find it hard to handle.

I fine it interesting that things seem to appear in my life exactly when needed. It is just up to me, paying attention, being aware enough, and choosing what it is that I need to continue in the journey of my life.
brave:
I saw one of the members posted their grandmother...That is the only person in my 40+ years of life that I ever reallly felt love from or any kind of support. However, she passed on 10 years ago and I have felt alone with absolutely no one I can just talk to. I miss her so very much... scry ...It has only been in the past 2-3 months that I made the choice that I simply can not do this alone, and I went out to find someone that I could trust, someone who would just be my friend, love, accept and SUPPORT me, unconditional love :roll: does that really exist...It is how I try and apply my life and experiences with. But the many people that I have been near, just are not in the same reality as I, and it is me, who has learned that I need to help me...for I do not seem to be able to find people here that will understand the complex me, and the few times in the past several years that I thought I could slowly let in...have just done what I so desparately am in fear of...I have opened up only to be hurt eventually...which now, has been the iron-gate, that has led me to keep away, everyone...live life on a very shallow level....acquaintances only!
In my attempt to find someone somewhere that I can just go be around, trust in friendship, has opened itself up...the opportunity was placed before me, as I went online to see if I could find some help...some friendship...someone who might understand the differences and accept...
John appeared in my inbox, after I had joined a group, that I thought may help me. This group was in 'destructive mode', and just when I thought it was no use, I will not find what I am looking for here either, I was invited to Ofear...in the week or so that I have been a member, I am feeling more and more confident that I may have found what I have soooo needed...it is just now a matter of making some friends and slowly start letting some of the deep kept things within me out and asking for help to understand all of the y's and what fors', all those things that I feel are going to destroy me ssad for I am on me last leg of even wanting to be here on this planet, in this life. It has been an intense life, and no, I am not feeling sorry for myself, just am so tired and so all alone thinking and feeling that I am a freak because I do not have any love in my life...except for loving myself, which has been a journey, and I have made some remarkable gains in the past 15 years in this area. But again I am tired and alone, and I do not know how much more I can do this...so here I am, with hope again...hesitant of course, but open to the experience that I just may not be alone, and I want to start opening up that 'gate' even if it be...one more try at life, loving people and myself...to behappy...Hmmmm sconfused can this be so...
Thanks for listening...
Leon

No one knows about my phobia except for some of my closest friends. But oFear I feel is always giving me support to continue through life and school and all my anxiety about being embarrassed because someone found out my phobia

One of the biggest issues with any phobia is the fact that you are made to feel "wierd"....people say stupid things and dont understand how debilitating the problem can be.

This leads to the person being embarrassed and "hiding" the problem. It sounds corny, but it really is true when i tell you that you are not alone, you arent the only person suffering from this phobia and it really does help to talk about it.

Simply discussing the problem openly is one HUGE step forward