I've taken some good photos now from where I live, so I'll have to E-mail them to Johnny to ask him to re-size them for me. No, I don't feel suicidal anymore, sooo glad for this site. Thanks, it really has picked me up over the last couple of months.

You can send them to me anytime and I will sort them out for you

Glad you are feeling better now.

Hi Cpt
Glad to hear you are thinking a bit more positive - and have tossed those negative thoughts to the palce where they belong "the way side"
Just think - all those great friends you have on here - and many other things which YOU DO have to carry on for ...... and more so
WHERE WOULD WE ALL BE WITHOUT YOUR GOOD SENSE OF HUMOUR, ADVICE AND HELP TO SPUR US ON ????
Good Luck Cpt, Take care and God Bless
Dawn

Thanks, I feel a lot better now. This site & the posters here have helped me feel better. Thanks for the reply Dawn. It was just the overwhelming sense of isolation that I felt for a while affected me, & the worry, & this site helped reduce all that. Yes, I had people around me, but no-one really understood. It was tough. Keeping myself occupied has helped as well. I just had a rough time, but I know now that killing myself isn't the way forward!

Cpt, I guess I was rushing the last time I posted and forgot the pic was above. NowI feel dumb. I will check out more pics you suggested on google earth thx. Hope the better fodd is helping

Hi everyone hope you are all doing good

tanks, I'm doing good,

Hi, I actually feel OK nowadays, I felt a bit guilty over the last few years because a lot of people have really had to help me out to get through life, & I can't give anything back to them, so anxiety crippled me, but I'll get through, just glad it happened to me, wouldn't wish it on anyone.

Look at it this way, if they helped get you through things and tried their best to help you, they obviously want you to be happy. So, by you trying and making it day by day, you're giving something back to those people.

Anyways, glad to hear that you've been feeling better Cpt.

Thankyou Ana, I'm feeling OK, I'm feeling a bit cynical about intense relationships like I wrote in my post, it's not normal, I know, I like saying hi to people even my parents, & you on here, but beyond that I can't get to know any one person too much. It's OK though.

Hi, Harold, I'm OK, can't talk much, I like what you write on here, I feel so bad now, just hope you are OK, I'll have a meal and go to sleep soon, good night.

Hi Cpt
Not feeling too great today? Are you feeling down?
I hope you feel better after some sleep. I'll see you around

Thanks, I'm OK now. The weather is still crap here, I'm optimistic, I've been looking at nice exotic places on the net, thinking maybe I could go to that country one day, I feel optimistic about life, but being patient.

Glad to hear you're ok
And planning future trips is always a good way to lighten ones mood. I tend to do that too

Any specific country you'd like to visit?

I'd probably go back to Spain, to the city of La Coruna, I was happy being there in 1996, I'd like to go to Russia too. I was in St. Petersburg in 2000.