Hi Sarah, from another Sarah!
I've been doing CBT for about a month and started meds this morning; no improvement yet.
If you want to fit in, though - and I'm being a hypocrite here - you just have to practice "getting out there". At least you
have friends - do they know about your SA and if not, are they likely to be understanding if you tell them that you get a bit "shy" and anxious in those situations? I'm sort of going through the process of losing all my friends at the moment because the few that I actually did things with have "changed" and are now ONLY into drinking and dancing and never talk to me except to invite me along to some nightclub. I told one of them about my SA, BDD and GAD and she told me to stop being paranoid and that "everyone feels like that some of the time". (Worst. Thing. You. Can. Say!) For God's sake, don't shut your friends out, because IMO it's impossible to have any self-confidence if you haven't got any friends. See if you can get a few friends together to do something quiet. (Something I can't do because I've turned into a pottering little old lady, while their idea of fun is drinking ethanolised cordial and jumping up and down to Lady Gaga until they pass out in the way of an oncoming tram...)